hunger...

Ok so why does it seem when you know what you want in life you can't attain it? And I'm definitely not talking materialistic. Material wealth comes and goes and brings temporary happiness, it does help in maintaing your needs to survive in this brutal world. But yet I hunger for something, something that I have had a taste of before. And that hunger is for the love of a special woman. A woman that can make you feel like your not afraid of anything, a woman that can replenish your soul, a woman that pushes you to be the man you were always destined for. And a woman that can help you overcome those fears that haven't let you give that love back. I desire to find that woman... but it seems that life isn't ready to give her to me. So I have to keep pushing myself to move forward as hard as life pushes me down I have to learn to be able to be strong enough to endure what life pushes on me, so that when I do meet the woman of my dreams, she can see that I will be the man that she can lean on, and know that I'll always be there!

Ok so sorry the sappiness, but it is what I have rummaging through my mind!

Nasty November

Ok so its been a minute since I last posted something... I think my mind body and soul have been at war with each other. I have started to gain some peace. The fog of despair has started to lift and now I can now see my path. Its been a painful time for me, trying to figure out who I am, especially in dealing with some fierce hardships that have befallen me.
I have been a dormant shell of a man for a long time. People say that with death comes life, and now can I see. I have put to rest a part of me that has haunted me, that hasn't let me move on with my life. A part of me that was fearful, and full of doubt. The recent trails and tribulations of life have forced me to face my fears, face my doubts and move forward or perish in the bleak existence of this blind conformity.